“Hello, Owen. I’m sorry it has taken me so long to get back to you. Dying takes up most of my time these days. I am only kidding. Dying isn’t so bad. It is actually extremely boring. Once you realize all the mistakes you’ve made in your life, dying gets incredibly dull. I am just waiting for the big day now. Ever since I’ve gotten my diagnosis, I have felt pulled to put space between us. You do not need to grieve anyone else. Forget about me, Owen. That’s the best thing you c

“Hey, Doc, it’s me, Owen. Just checking in again. It’s been awhile since we last spoke. Listen, I have to talk to someone. It happened again, Doc. I fell in love. I really thought she was the one. I felt it in my soul. She still lives in my mind and bones. You know how it goes . . . But it really did happen again. And I fucked it all up. I am unlovable. I am not capable of being in a relationship. I am so shit at loving someone. I am terrible at trusting someone. I love from

A million tiny orange and black butterflies surrounded us     As we walked to the waterfall         On top of a mountain           The most beautiful woman in the world             Held my hand in hers               As the butterflies scattered before we stepped on them It was a perfect day     The best day        The sun was shining          She was laughing and smiling  Everything was aligning     For love to bloom  And bloom it did, bright, warm and big Up in the mountains

If I could I would     apologize          for the lies.   If I could     I would       tell her that I am sorry         for pushing her away.     If I could       I would         call her        and explain       that I can still fall for her;       every time she pulls me back in,          I fall more in love with her,          and when she pulls away,            my love evaporates. It had to end.    It had to.     I had to push her away.    I just wish now I could say