Just A Woman
She was just a woman
I kept telling myself this
Over and over
Repeating it in my mind
She was just a woman
She wasn’t that great
She wasn’t that special
She meant nothing
Lies
All lies
I told myself lies
Over and over
Repeating it in my mind
A delusion
I had too
It was the only way to make it
To make it to another day
She was just a woman
I didn’t need to think about her
She wasn’t worth it
I’d find someone better
Much better
Someone who fits
Not someone who leaves the holes
Now these holes needed feeling
Who can fit in these holes left by her?
So far
No one
She left me her music
And
Her authors
I read
And I listened
In a perpetual state of remembrance
She was there with me
I hated her for this
I didn’t want her there
But I loved these musicians
I loved these authors
I had loved her too
Not anymore
I didn’t want to
It had been too long
We didn’t know each other anymore
I had changed too much
Maybe she had too
One thing was forsure
Things would never be like they were
Things had changed
Time marched on
The days past
And thats where she belonged
In the past
She was a bad dream
A dream I was ready to wake up from