I Did This

I imagined:

 A corn maze

   and a haunted house

     A concert or two

Romantic dinners

 Tender sex

Kinky sex

 Long hugs

Dog walks and naps

    Movies and baking

Her naked body intertwined with mine as we watch the sun rise

      Coffee and poetry

Wine and her laugh

Long drives

and wishing we had more time

I imagined this,

    but what I’ll probably get is:

a winter full of regret 

    and a chest full of guilt 

     A dull ache

A cold bed

     And head

full of bullshit

I did this. 

This is my fault.

CH 10/19/26