Forever

I think I’ll love you forever

which is a bit of a bummer

since you aren’t here

and since forever sounds pretty long

born to be broken

always left hoping better days will rise with the sun 

why did it have to be this way?

I know this is my fault

and I can’t ask for help

the world around me melts

and I can’t ask you for help

my pride is telling me to hide

love in disguise, dressed as fear

turning slowly to face the shadows

you belong here

I think I’ll love you forever

and not just during the summer 

which is a bit of a bummer 

since you are already taking applications for my replacement 

but will he love you through the seasons?

will he be the reason you believe in love again?

will he stay every time you push him away?

. . . he’s probably better than me in a thousand different ways, but he isn’t me. 

I remember how you take your coffee

and I remember your comfort meal

I know which movie series to put on when we are dying a little

I know what songs can reach you

And I know a song speaks when you struggle to

I know what books we need to read

I see our holes and I want us to grow in them

I want to plant seeds in the emptiness

I want everything

and maybe that does make me selfish . . . but I have to ask for it. 

I think I’ll love you forever

and not just when it’s easy to

believe me, Babe, I love you

even when it’s not easy to, I love you

I want to say sorry

we deserve a real apology 

we deserve a better story

It’s not really over . . . is it?

humility is the antidote to shame

and guilt is a guide

so I'll bite down on my pride 

and tell you that I want to fix this

we can fix this . . . can’t we?

I think I’ll love you forever

So let's fix this

before another minute is missed

you are the reason I exist.

CH 10/20/26