Through The Smoke
Through the smoke
I drive
Always anxious
Never arrived
Through the smoke
I seek
Something to hold onto
Something to believe
Through the smoke
I smoke
Getting high
Because I am dying inside
And I need something
To pass the time
Through the smoke
I joke
It's either that
Or choke
So I keep it light
It’s just smoke
It won’t bite
I gasp for air
But no one
Seems to care
I am a hairless monkey at the zoo
For you
And they all stop and stare
Through the smoke
I take another step
And with my chin up
And my headphones in
I try my best
But most days
It feels like something is missing
Deep in the chest
I would love to love
But cupid can’t see
Through the smoke
And through the smoke
I raise up my beer
And give a toast to the Gods
Everyone of them
That’ll spare the rod
It’s poison with each breath
It’s a maze
And a test
It’s the coming and going
And the flowing the wise do with it
This smoke is in the sky
Blocks out the sun
When I can’t see her
I don’t feel like my day is done
But she’s up there
Gasping for life
To shine her rays on us
And continue to give us life
Through the smoke
I look for her
The one that got away
I probably won’t see her today
But I’ll try again
Anyway
It’s dark in the day
And most seem okay
With life this way
I guess they don’t have a choice either
It has to be
Through the smoke
For all us
The individual
Mixed with the crowd
Through the smoke
And maybe looking back
Some of us
Can feel proud
Of who we are
And where we have been.
-C.H.