The Saddest Part Of My Story

I think I’ll just go to sleep tonight

Instead of messaging you.

I really thought about it though

I really felt conflicted

I’ve had just enough drinks

To almost do it

But in the end

I choose

To just

Fall asleep.

I know

Time is running out

And this is not the time

To be running away;

But I guess I don’t know it well enough.

I still

Lack the courage

To love.

It is the saddest part of my story.

-C.H.