She’s a numb little bug
I just want to give her a little hug
But the heart is tugged
Two different ways
I have to protect myself
I have to stay sane
She’s ice
And simply being nice
Won’t melt her
But when I felt her
I shivered
And I am just not brave enough
To willingly head into the arms of winter
She is just a sinner
And I am too
I am not tough enough
To love rough
My fears are my crutch
It’s the only way I walk these streets
When every heartbeat
Aches
Maybe loving her
Was a mistake
Maybe letting her go
Is a mistake
Maybe she is my fate
If she was at the bottom of a lake
I’d drown
Just to see her face
Before it’s too late
Everything I create
Is her
And somewhere along the way
The vision got blurred
My sleep got disturbed
With dreams of her
And waiting never
Turned into waiting forever
This numb little bug
Was molded down below
But sent from above
With a chest full of love
I hold my breath
And wait for her
The numb little bug
Who crawled in my head
Through my ears
Where she eats on my fears
And thrives in the mind of a coward
Who only ever learns his lessons
Afterwards.
-C.H.