Thankful

Thank you

    Yes, thank you for hating me 

I appreciate it

    Thank you for making it clear to me that I wasn’t your type

And thank you for thinking I was corny

   Thanks for doubting me

Thanks for pretending to care for a few seconds

   Thanks for praying that I fail

Thanks for shitting on my goals

    Thanks for saying that I was too nice

Thanks for calling me a loser

   Thanks for being jealous

Thank you for being my biggest hater . . .

I see your eyes following me around town

   Hoping to see me trip

Hoping to see me get hit by a car

   Hoping no one else will find me interesting

Thanks for spreading rumors about me around this shit-hole of a town

   Thank you for running your mouth

Thank you for hating yourself

    Thanks for projecting that

Thanks for hating the world

    Thanks for hating all men . . .

You reminded me who I am

And life was feeling so peaceful before that . . .

I almost settled

I almost felt good enough

I was almost content with what I’ve done so far

But then you had to remind me about all I still have to do

So I had to lock in

I had to feel your hatred 

I had to come full circle

I remembered that I am still hungry

So,

Thanks for pouring gas on that flame inside of my belly 

Thanks for the inspiration

Thanks for the motivation; the YouTube videos weren't cutting it anymore.

If I could tell you one thing, it would be

Thanks for hating me 

Thanks for beating me down

Thanks for making me feel like I’m not enough

Thanks for making me stronger than I ever imagined I would be

They say living well is the best revenge . . .

Living well . . . So I hope you’ll see me in hell

I hope you see who I am

I hope you see who I’ll become 

Thanks for never showing me love

Thanks for always putting me down

Thank you for making me feel like a clown

Thank you for reminding me about suffering 

Thanks for taking me down to hell with you

I wish you well . . . I hope you find peace in hell

I hope you’ll hate me forever

I hope you’ll always talk shit

Thanks for reminding me how pathetic I am

And

Thank you for hating me . . .

I remember all the insults and forget all the compliments 

Thank you for giving up on me

And thank you for not forgiving me

Thanks for thinking that I wasn’t capable 

Thanks for underestimating me 

Thanks for rejecting me

Thanks for all of the nicknames 

Thanks for setting me off like a loaded gun

Thanks for reminding me who the fuck I am

I am Clint Haugen,

And that’s enough. 

CH 11/27/24