Stupid Little Prick

Bay Lee Joe

   Didn’t have a home

She spent her nights all alone

    Staring at her phone

Waiting to hear from him

   Hoping with everything within

That he would respond to her text

   But

She hasn’t heard from him since they had sex

    Four days ago . . .

He fell asleep afterwards

    And stayed the night in her bed

While she had thoughts of love swirling around her head

    He snored

So here she sits, being ignored

    With rocks in her stomach

And a sinking chest

    She hopes for the best . . .

He wouldn’t call her mom for her

    He wouldn’t drive through the night

He wouldn’t fight for her

    But still

She wants him

    She feels pulled 

She longs for something new and exciting

    The feeling hit her like lightning 

And under the wrong lighting

    He looks like a keeper

Behind the eyes

    Lingered something deeper

A  stimulation of the mind

   A swift passing of time

She was smitten

    And he was happy he was hitting 

And . . . I sit across from her

   All alone

While she tries not to stare at her phone 

    I look into her eyes

And don’t see a single lie

   She’s told me everything

And holy fuck does the truth sting

       I try to feel like enough

I try to trust

    But her eyes are so brown

And her smile is so sweet

   I know my dirty old soul doesn’t deserve her either

   But maybe if I stick around

      She might come around 

To the idea of being with me 

    But, golly, 

Caring about someone who cares about someone else sure feels silly . . .

All while

  Marrie 

 Sits across from me

And she looks at me 

   Like I look at Bay Lee

And I look at Bay Lee

   Like she looks at her phone when she gets a message from him . . .

Me and Marrie

    We had sex five days ago . . .

Four souls

   Without a home

All alone  

  All in the same boat

A sinking ship

    All suffering

Not even coming close to a healthy relationship . . .

   There are no happy endings to this . . .

There is no hope

   There is just a pull towards the people that will eat us up out of loneliness and lust . . .

She wants the plot

   And I just want her

She wants me

   And I just want Bay Lee 

She wants him

   And he just wants to go to the gym 

He wants a perfect lady

   But eventually calls them all crazy

So

   Fuck you Brandon. 

You got a gem

A 10/10

So text her back

You stupid little prick

    CH 11/15/24