It was a very impromptu first date
We talked about our lives for a while
She told me that she's never been passionate about anything
I told her that being passionate has it's pros and cons
She asked what the cons were
I told her that when you're passionate about things
That boredom
Is your biggest enemy
Passionate people have a tough time working basic jobs that are unrelated to their passions
Passionate people need to be constantly working hard on a project that they love
Passionate people feel disconnected from those that aren't passionate
I told her
That the biggest fear that a lot of passionate people have is
‘Existential boredom’.
I told her that it's a fight that I am always fighting.
. . .
Well. . .
She went to the bathroom
And came back
Saying that her friend locked herself out of her apartment
And that she needed to leave immediately
And help her friend out
I knew that she was lying
And it stung a little
But I didn't say anything
I closed my tab and she left without saying goodbye.
I made a mental note to myself
To never again
Talk about my mental health
On a first date
The reaction I got from doing so was— . . .
. . .
. . .
. . .
And the next day
As I went to my favorite place to work on my book
She was there
On another date
With someone else
And I didn't really care at all
I just felt bad for the guy
I just wanted to tell him not to express any honest emotion at all.
CH 2/16/24
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