I'm Sorry Again

Hey, Kid,

I’m sorry again

   You broke me, kid

You gutted me

   And now I don’t know how to live

You pulled away

    You left me in the cold

So far from home

    Naked and alone

And somehow

   I’m the bad guy

Somehow

   I did exactly what you did

And now I’m sorry again

   Now I’m the villain

But,

   How you feel today,

Jealous and scared,

    Angry and anxious,

   Is how I’ve felt for the last 180 days

So

   Go back to your husband

    And your loveless life

Go back to your comfort 

   Go back home

Leave me here

   Naked and alone

Close your door on your way out

   I’ll be alright

I’ll be alright . . .

   Go back to your trap

And I’ll drive back 

   Go back to your previous life

Move backwards

   And feel stuck again

I’m sorry, kid

   I’m sorry again 

People can’t go back to who they were

    They can only continue to become what they’ve been becoming

So next time your broken

   Don’t come back to me

Don’t come back to me this time

   Go save your passionless marriage

Go away

   What you feel today

Is how I’ve felt for the last 180 days

   And my biggest fears came true

My biggest fears about you came true . . .

 I loved you

   I really did, kid

I loved you

   But I don’t know if I can love you again

I only have so many apologies inside of me 

    I only have so many dreams

These cycles repeat

    For me

And for you

   It’ll repeat

Destined to let love die

   Go back to your loveless life

With your husband who ignored your pain

   Go back to that house

Go back in time and do it all again

    Go insane

And hope he will change

  Because I can’t keep doing this

   I can’t keep breaking 

     Hoping you’ll be ready some day.

-CH 12/7/25