Hey God,

Hey God,

What is happening to me?

   What’s my note in this song?

What’s my role in this play?

   Are you still up there, watching?

Will you tell me what to do?

    Will you show me the way?

Do I have any say?

   Okay . . .

Is this what I asked for?

    Am I what I wanted to be?

Is this the recipe for happiness?

   Or is my life just a mess?

Is this a test?

    Is this your plan?

What about my free will?

    Am I mentally ill?

Is this world poisoned?

   Where is my road to redemption, God?

Where is my health?

   Where’d it go?

Where’s my youth?

   I’m still young, aren’t I?

I still have time . . .

Don’t I?

   What do you want me to be?

Why can’t I see any path clearly?

    Am I too far gone?

Have the demons grabbed me by my heels?

    Are they pulling me back down to hell?

Where are you, God?

   I thought you were strong.

I thought you had power.

    I thought you would help.

I thought you knew everything.

   I thought you believed in me . . . 

I really thought you believed in me . . .

   CH 1/25/25