Even December Ends

Nothing can last forever

Even December ends

Even the rain cries

Everything

And everyone

Dies

Even the rain cries

Even December ends

I just don’t want my life to end with December

I want to remember the fall

And not crawl into bed

Avoiding the demons in my head

Until spring

I want to remember the fall

I want to live again

But:

The leaves fall

The grass dies

The sun sets

The regrets stack up

And I can’t die until I try to fix my mistakes

I can’t fall of this tree

When so much still rages inside of me

I don’t want to die

I don’t want things to change

I want it all to stay the same

I don’t want this pain

But I don’t want to let go, either

I want to remember the end of December. 

CH 10/15/25