Believe

I don’t understand this.

Where are we?

   What are we doing?

Why can’t we say goodbye?

    Why can’t we be together?

And where are we going?

     It comes and goes in waves, they say. 

But mostly, 

   you stay inside of me, never leaving—never retreating.

   I feel you here, 

right over my shoulder,

like the demonic angel you are. So sweet. So dark . . .

    I feel your heart beating against mine.

You have conversations with me

       as I try to sleep at night. 

I can’t sleep at night. 

    I feel your presence near me constantly. 

Quantumly entangled,

      I reckon we are quantumly entangled now.

  The space between us doesn’t matter.

I feel what you feel. 

    One word;

one song;

   one thought;

one memory; 

  triggers it,

     and I am back with you. 

I don’t understand any of this,

    and I fear I may be in love with this new playlist;

but this new book is pretty shit. 

    If I read about how beautiful young boy Achilles's feet are again, I might lose it. 

 It’s okay that I don’t like it.

   But I will finish it, because you are reading it. That’s who I am. (It got better.)

    It’s okay when things aren’t perfect.

        It’s okay when you get annoyed about something I am doing, or not doing. 

       Just talk to me. 

         Tell me what you need. 

         Tell me what you feel. I’ll listen and I’ll try to understand. 

          Grant me the chance to learn from my mistakes. I’m far from perfect. There will be a lot of mistakes I’ll make. But I promise you, I will always try to learn from them. 

   “I prefer a variety of healthier home-cooked meals. Stop suggesting frozen pizza. Step it up a bit, ya goof.”

“Roger.” (insert saluting emoji.)

“I need you to take the lead sometimes.”

“Roger.” (insert saluting emoji.)

“I need you to stay steady when I spiral.”

       “Roger.” (insert saluting emoji.)

It can be this easy with me. 

    Just tell me what you need. 

And believe in you and me. 

That’s it. 

    Tell me what you need. 

And believe in you and me.

CH 4/6/26