Being Human
As a human
Sometimes
You are lost
And sometimes
You are in love
Sometimes you are home
But you still feel
All alone
Sometimes you’re insufferably bored
And other times
You’re in the chaos
Sometimes your life is headed in one direction
And then
Someone
Dies
And you and your path
Change
Sometimes, you realize you don’t love her anymore
While she is
Laying naked in your arms
And you know
That she deserves something that you can’t give her
But missing her
Like you will
Will feel like there are rocks in your stomach
And you’ll sink with every step
But you know
That if you fake it for her
That really
You are
Drowning her
And she was created to fly
Sometimes, life is sitting on the couch
Watching your favorite show
Clung to it like the blanket you had as a babe
And you don’t move
For
5 days
Except to get ice cream out of your fridge
Sometimes, life is rainy days and holes in your socks
while on another occasion,
life is weddings and newborn nieces
Some days you write a book
Because
You are dying
On the inside
And you can hardly breath
Through your clenched jaw
While every heartbeat
Shoots pain down your back
While, on other days
You write a funny poem about taking a shit.
Sometimes, we are radiant stars full of energy,
But on mondays
We can feel like
A wet street dog
Wandering around
Without anyone to love
Unconditionally
Sometimes that dog bites us
And sometimes
That dog
Follows us home
And our lonely house
Feels a little less like
A jail cell.
-CH 8.7.23