All the Debts I Owe

Everything I ever assumed about love was a big fat lie. 

She has shown me that. 

Well, now she is gone, and I’ve replaced her with booze and books. 

But while she was here, she did change my life. She did show me what love really is. And for that, I will be forever grateful for her. 

I will have to go home soon and smoke a ton of weed. I will have to drink until my soul doesn’t ache as much as it currently does. I will drown these feelings with subtle poison so I don’t become overwhelmed by them. Pretty standard stuff for me. 

I’ve met the best lady in the world, and she lives 1,600 miles away from me . . . A lot of love, mixed with a little bit of tragedy. This is the only way it could be for me . . .

I may need more booze because these feelings aren’t so easy to drown tonight. 

She will inherit all the debts I owe . . . 

I know

That some day

She will inherit all the debts I owe . . .

And we will meet in Idaho after the snow

After I’ve paid for my debts

And earned the worlds respect

We will get in our cars

And meet in Idaho 

This, I know

This, I hope I know

I’ll be back some day . . . I hope

Oh, I hope.

Ohhh . . . I hope . . . I don't leave her with all the debts that I owe . . .

-CH 8/8/25