I don’t want to talk to anyone
I want to drink alone
I want to cry when and wherever,
without the judgemental eyes staring at me
I want to write alone
I don’t want a beautiful woman to lay naked in bed with
I don’t want to fake it
I don’t want to pretend to be happy
and I don’t want to talk about the grief either
I don’t want to see her
I want to be completely left alone
I want to fall asleep,
I don’t care about myself
I want to listen to the piano
and sit in the sun
and try to forget about everything
I am crying out for help
but no one is around to hear my cries
I don’t really want to be alone
but I don’t know who I want to reach out to
I have the booze,
to keep me company.
I have an empty house to go to tonight.
The tears hit the keys more than my fingers do
I will drive home drunk
Judge me if you want to
I don’t care anymore.
The darkness wins
A man died last night
A good man
I should’ve been better to him
but i wasn’t
I am hardly ever better to the people that deserve it.
So leave me alone today,
please don't leave me alone.