The Present
The future exist
As long as
I do
And
I am presently
Made up of
All of the moments
Of the past
I am in the middle of two points
The future
And all the possibilities
While simultaneously
Created by all of the variables of the past
And all of the choices I’ve made
That have led me
Right here
I am alive
In the middle
Of the future
And the past
But it does not feel
Like I am at a point on a line
But rather
A point
In a
Circle
My intuition tells me
That time doesn’t move forward
And the past isn’t behind me
It is all
Within me
It is all within me
And
Without of me
It is
And it isn’t
It’s a loop
But also
Infinity
And
Nothingness
It is a point in the middle of a circle
I’ve been here before
And
I’ll be here again
I jogged a trail today
That I used to jog
10 years ago
And I had a moment
Where I saw my younger self
Jogging on a railing
Next to the trail
Like I used to do
All of those years ago
Balancing
Perfectly
Not a worry about falling off
10 feet below
Just stride after stride
In perfect motion
And he/I was so
Driven
And so
Happy
And so
Motivated
I jogged along him
And he
Along me
My memory . . .
He didn’t feel like me
He felt so
Healthy
And
Energetic
And for a second
I envied him
But I realized
I am him
And he is me
The present me
Is the vision
Of that kid
And
The present me
Is still
That energetic
Past me
I am both
The past vision of myself for the future
And present memory of the past
I am
All of my life
At once
The beginning
And
The future
And all of the potential
It all lives in my spirit
In every moment
I am the present,
The past,
And the future,
All mixed together
In a cocktail
We call
Consciousness.
-C.H.