Sometimes
Sometimes
Some days
It’s hard to say
Anything
Hell,
Some days
It even feels hard
To sit up
Sometimes,
I’ll sit up
From scrolling through my phone for an hour
And just fall back down
In exhaustion
But I still remain
Oddly proud
Of getting up for a second or two
It’s a small win
For a brief moment
And then I go back
To scrolling
Sometimes,
I’ll sit
Staring at my walls
While trying to decide
What it is exactly
That I want to do
And sometimes,
I’ll sit
In contemplation
About what to do
For an hour
And then sometimes,
What I spend an hour deciding to do
Ends up
Being
A complete bust
Sometimes,
I feel the weight
Of having
Too many choices
Combined with
Too much stimulation
Mixed with a constant need to be entertained
And sometimes
It feels
Heavy
That’s why
Just sitting up
Can be
Exhausting
But I only feel this way
Sometimes.
-C.H.